James 1:5 "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."

This picture of Cianan and Cuinn was taken December 2010. Cianan will be two years old next April and his dad says he's already in the "terrible twos". Just think - the child is advanced for his age!

Dear Family and Friends,

Thank you for your prayers, especially for my meeting on January 19th with my UCSF oncologist. I went there to set up the dates for some of my stem cells to be extracted, outpatient, however, the doctor had other ideas. I will be admitted to the UCSF hospital on Monday, January 24th, if there is a bed available. I will be there for 2 and a half weeks for a stronger chemo treatment for four days, 10 days to recuperate, and 1-5 days to extract some of my stem cells. He ordered this treatment because of 8 myeloma "hot spots" that showed up in my PET scan. I was hearing about these hot spots for the first time on the 19th. The doctor wants to bring them down to maybe 2 hot spots before removing the stem cells.

I've been writing on my blog about how we need to trust God completely and submit ourselves to His perfect will. To be honest, I was shocked when the doctor told me his new plan. When I was planning my trip to San Francisco, I wanted to drive over by myself to prove my "excessive independence". So strange that all along by being dependent on others for transportation, He was trying to teach me that I need to be totally dependent on Him and that He would use His people to meet my needs.

I didn't really ask Him whether I should drive to San Francisco all by myself or take someone with me. Working on my "excessive independence", I did not listen to my sister in Dallas or my friend in Modesto who tried to get me to take someone with me. God already knew my driving would be fine, He was concerned about me being alone as the doctor revealed his new plan. He knew what was going to happen and wanted me to have someone with me to minister His care for me, but I would not open my hands to receive His gift. I was too concerned about driving there and back, "all by myself". I am so grateful for God's forgiveness and His encouragement to start with a clean slate. The above dates are tentative. It all depends on God.

Medical Updates

1) The neurophathy is still in my feet.
2) I do not have pain in my bones.
3) I am still treating my eyes for blepharitis.
4) The chemo on Monday will be valcade, dex and PACE. The doctor is thinking that I will lose my hair after this chemo (that will save me some time in the morning). This usually happens after the patient goes home.

Please pray that God will:

a) Remove the multiple myeloma from my body.
b) Make His presence known in the hospital.
c) Give me roommates who need Him.
d) Help me share Christ with everyone.
e) Bless His name in whatever I do or say.
f) Give me fellowship with others who love Him.
g) Flow His love through me.

Thank you for continuing to pray. God is listening and Jesus is interceding.

I am walking by faith, by the grace of God and in hope,

Love,
Jane